Let Go Faith

LET GO FAITH

My parents named me Donna Faye. My Mother shared with me time and time again how she decided to call me Donna. She was awakened in the middle of the night with a jolt and heard the name Donna. My Dad chose Faye. It’s comforting to me to know that my name means Lady (of) Faith.
We’re told to have faith in God, in each other, and in ourselves. But, are we ever told it’s ok not to have enough faith? I had never experienced how not having enough faith could be in my best until it happened for me.
The financial pressure had eased. My youngest child, Kristin, had graduated from high school and was headed to college. The other two kids were working and paying their own way. My job had grown monotonous. The fact is, I didn’t want to work.
My husband who can logically think about what is happening gave me advice I had never heard before. The conversation went like this:
“Jim, I’m tired of getting up every day and going to work. But, I feel like I can’t quit.”
“Then don’t. If it was meant for you to quit the assurance to stop would be there. If it’s not there, then don’t quit.”
The entire spring and summer I pushed my self to make my way to the desk that had been my workplace for 11 years.
When August rolled around Kristin packed her car and headed off to college. That Thursday morning I stood on the front porch and waved goodbye as she headed off to Texas to further her education.
The next Tuesday morning a memo circulated in the office. The company had been acquired and I was informed my job would be eliminated.
The company offered a severance package. I received 16 weeks of full pay and 6 months of unemployment. Thanks to government funding and my circumstances I was offered the opportunity to go back to college. I was female, over 40, had two dependents who were full time college students, and my job had been eliminated.
Had I quit the job I would’ve missed out on the college experience and degree.
I have since coined the phrase “let go faith.” It’s part of life and its changes. I try to practice let go faith as midnight approaches. I know the day is gone, but a new one is about to make its entrance. The day ahead might be similar, better, or worse, but the day before is gone.
There are days I wish I could have again, but there are days that I ‘m glad are gone and never to return.
Enjoy each day as if it were your last. Know that He who is in control of our days knew what He was doing when He made time just and believe in a let go faith.